Publisher: 13e Note Editions (March 2013)
Paperback: 304 pages
Translation: Karine Chaunac
Language: French
ISBN-10: 2363740300
ISBN-13: 978-2-36374-030-4

“HOLD-UP is a marriage of two types of cautionary memoir, the addict’s tale and the criminal’s professional reminiscences. Its ancestors include such worthy tomes as You Can’t Win by Jack Black, Where the Money Was by Willie Sutton, The Basketball Diaries by Jim Carroll and Life Plus 99 Years by Nathan Leopold. In fiction, William Burroughs’s Junky, William Fogle’s Drugstore Cowboy and Charles Fischer’s (sadly out-of-print) Trips cover similar ground. Hold-Up sits comfortably on the shelf in such worthy company. It stands out on its own merits, however, thanks to its author’s sharp, vivid voice and unsentimental view of both his addiction and his erstwhile career. There’s genuine grief at the loss of a number of friends and running companions, but no self-pity, and no happy ending, either; the only indication in the book of O’Neil’s eventual sobriety is the fact that he lived to write the thing down, and beautifully at that. And for that we can only be grateful.”
––Scott Phillips, author of THE ICE HARVEST

“There aren’t many books that when you finish them leave you silent and unable to reenter the world for a while—and Patrick O’Neil’s HOLD-UP is one of them. This is a life recorded that no one in their right mind would want—but it’s a sharp and precise look back by someone now in his right mind trying to make sense of a past that went well off its rails. HOLD-UP grabs the reader from page one and doesn’t let up until you’ve turned the last page and are left moved, disturbed and a little out of breath.”
––Rob Roberge, author of THE COST OF LIVING

“Patrick was a roadie for Dead 
Kennedys and road manager for Flipper, one of the 
best punk bands of the San Francisco Bay Area. 
He was a roadie, but mostly he was an addict. Fifteen years later, 
he’s robbing banks and supermarkets, surviving overdoses, and playing Sid & 
Nancy with his girlfriend Jenny… Patrick O’Neil recounts this long journey punctuated 
by lightning discharges of adrenaline. A nightmare-like 
creepy thriller: his life. Brutal!”





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“O’NEIL & O’NEILL, JUMEAUX DE DÉFONCE” La revue 813, Numéro 116, Juillet (2013)
“13e Note Editions/Hold-Up du Patrick O’Neil” CARNETS DU LIBRAIRE, Mai (2013)
“Noir-c-noir 585 HOLD-UP Patrick O’Neil, 13e NOTE EDITIONS” Radio PFM 99.9, Mai (2013)
“Meurtres, braquages, hérone et rock’n’roll : le cocktail polar qui tue ! La sélection noire de Philippe Blanchet” ROLLING STONE France, Mai (2013)
“Si vous restez de marbre c’est que vous êtes déjà mort” librarie passages, Avril (2013)
“Hold-Up – Patrick O’Neil” LES BUVEURS D’NCRE, Avril (2013)
“Hold-up de Patrick O’Neil, et pour quelques grammes de plus”, Mars (2013)
“LE CHOIX DE CHRISTOPHE DUPUIS” La Tete en Noir, No161, Mars/Avril (2013)


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“How A Life of Addiction Ends” AfterPartyMagazine, April (2014)
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“Episode 12 with Patrick O’Neil” The Adulting Well Podcast, April (2019)
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“Patrick O’Neil 093” Writing Daily, June (2018)
“Interview Podcast with Patrick O’Neil, by Todd Taylor” Razorcake, August (2017)
“Patrick O’Neil reads excerpts from Gun, Needle, Spoon” Gorsky Press, August (2015)
“Broken by Patrick O’Neil” Word Riot, January (2015)
“AfterPartyPod: Patrick O’Neil” AfterPartyMagazine, December (2014)
“B&B Ep 109 Patrick O’Neil” Books and Booze, September (2014)
“Interview with Patrick O’Neil” Coffee with Alice, August (2014)
“Something’s Wrong” Gorsky Press, October (2012)


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“One Question: Patrick O’Neil” Hypertext Magazine, April (2017)
“My Greatest Struggles as a Writer” Writing Issues, Huffington Post, March (2017)
“Q&A With Patrick O’Neil by Seth Fischer” Angel’s Flight – Literary West, March (2017)
“Advice I Give” Writing Issues, Huffington Post, February (2017)
“Working with an Editor Who Didn’t Like Me” Writing Issues, Huffington Post, February (2017)
“Addiction Recovery Literature Including How To And Memoirs – Part 2” Single and Sober, February (2017)
“How I Deal With Rejection” Writing Issues, The Huffington Post, January (2017)
“The Surprising Benefits of Being a Writer” Writing Issues, Huffington Post, December (2016)
“Gun Needle Spoon” Last-Door Society, Talk Recovery Radio, August (2016)
“An Interview with Patrick O’Neil” Dzanc Books, October (2015)
“The Regeneration of Patrick O’Neil” Curbside Splendor Publishing, July (2015)
“Prison Saved Punk Rock Addict” San Francisco Chronicle, July (2015)
“Book Notes – Patrick O’Neil ‘Gun, Needle, Spoon'” Largehearted Boy, July (2015)
“The Sunday Rumpus Interview: Patrick O’Neil” The Rumpus, July (2015)
“Roadie+Junkie+Robber = Author” Life Elsewhere, WMNF 88.5, June (2015)
“TNB Self-Interview” The Nervous Breakdown, June (2015)
“Gun, Needle, Spoon” Shelf Unbound, June (2015)
“Patrick O’Neil – Gun Needle Spoon” Book Talk, Breakthru Radio, May (2015)
“Writing Process Blog Tour” Full Blue Moon Dementia, September (2014)
“Heroin” Life Elsewhere, WMNF 88.5, February (2014)
“Patrick O’Neil, Author, Filmmaker” Lunch Ticket, Winter/Spring Issue (2014)
“Life After Punk” Life Elsewhere, WMNF 88.5, September (2013)
“Villains” Life Elsewhere, WMNF 88.5, May (2013)
“Heroin, Love, Bank Robberies, Dysfunctional Relationships, and Jail” Elizabeth A. White (2013)
“The Next Big Thing: Self-Interview” Full Blue Moon Dementia, February (2013)
“memory and memoir from under the shadows of heroin” Non-Profit Nook, January (2013)

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“Lip Service West – Patrick O’Neil – July 12th, 2014” Lip Service West, August (2014)
“Patrick O’Neil « Quiet Lightning” Evan Karp, August (2013)
“Lit Up Spring ’11 Patrick O’Neil” Literary Uprising/AULA, May (2013)
“Patrick O’Neil 14 Hills” Evan Karp, May (2011)


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“Patrick O’Neil – Gun, Needle, Spoon” SoberWorx, June (2018)
“Alumnus Profile” Common Thread, Antioch University, December (2015)
“Patrick O’Neil” Amazon, November (2015)
“Artist Corner: Patrick O’Neil” Little Thunder Films, April (2014)