The mini-half fridge in my apartment has two kinds of water staring me in the face, bubbly and flat and only the wilted cilantro wedged between the hand-pressed organic mustard seed mustard and the very un-organic high in cholesterol Best Foods brand mayo in its squeezable tube resemble anything edible. The cantaloupe has been there for like what? Three weeks? Hovering in a depreciating shell and really do I think that what’s inside is going to be any different than what’s growing on the bottom of it in light shades of blue?
In the apartment upstairs from me they’re drilling a hole in the floor with an immense auger, so for now to stay here and think about what to eat is a futile proposition. But none the less I am hungry and there are only two places in this neighborhood to buy groceries – Jack’s Liquors or Whole Foods. Now Jack’s, for a liquor/porn store and only a mere half block away, has an amazing amount of really strange dusty canned goods and an un-amazing mixture of discount two for a dollar cookies, puffy loafs of generic white bread, off brand toilet paper and those suspect triangle “deli sandwiches” that Ahmed’s got tucked away neat in their little wedge shaped packages behind a refrigerated display case. This veritable plethora of culinary delights pales in comparison to the two shining racks of porno magazines and half priced “Adult” videos that take up the front left-hand side of the store’s space. There is a small badly printed sign proclaiming this part of the store off limits to those that are not 18 years of age or older and then two or three larger ones stating that there will be no overt fondling of any of these items unless you absolutely intend to buy them! In the back of the store below the giant concave anti-pilfering mirror are the real necessities – the beer and wine, while behind the checkout counter the various sized bottles of hard liquor sit awaiting purchase. Thus have I mentally toured Jack’s before even going over there and came up with the same conclusion as always – that there is nothing to eat there unless one is so inebriated that booze or pornography no longer holds sway and any thought of avoiding what does indeed keep these foods from rotting after years of sitting on these shelves is a dietary concept that one doesn’t adhere to.
As an alternative there is, of course, Whole Foods, an actual organic grocery market chain store that just put down roots not a block and a half away from my apartment building. Yet in substance and appearance it is another world apart from Jack’s. There are no racks of magazines with naked women shoving their breasts together as they stare out at you nor are there any microwave and serve frozen chiliburgers to be found. However, there are many organic or at least somewhat humanly processed food stuffs from throughout the world and a rather large take-out/self-serve/salad-bar area, while the rest of the store has its fresh vegetable, meat and cheese sections. There is quite the au courant bakery as well. And right about this time you might be asking just why anyone would waste their energy going to Jack’s if this seemingly tempting wholesome emporium were available instead?
And I think I can answer that sorta.
If it’s real early in the morning or after nine at night then Jack’s be it as far as stores for this neighborhood and if you’re a bit down on your luck and a tad short on funds then Ahmed will put it on the tab until the end of the week and besides as overpriced as he is Ahmed’s a local. He lives upstairs from his store and from what I can see all he does is work and sleep and scream at the Crackheads while waving a baseball bat! Now none of the employees over at Whole Foods even lives in the neighborhood and besides all the people who work at Whole Foods, except of course this one girl with the short black hair who sorta smiled at me once with this lopsided smile of hers… But anyway, all the stockers, the fishmongers, the cheese slingers and even the cashiers all look like they just finished shooting dope in the bathroom and afterwards either were busy piercing each other’s bodies with the used hypodermic needle or tattooing one another with the same needle dipped in organic day-glo goo! Not one of them appears destined to be a professional clerk in the same sense that those guys who bag your groceries at the mega-markets in the suburbs do. Not that I’d wish that kinda existence on my worst enemy and really I got nothing against junkies – hell I was one for ever and ever! But at least I had the decency to not touch food stuff and be a parasite for a living while I was one! I mean what happened to the days when any self-respecting junkie committed petty crimes for their daily fix by shoplifting in places like Whole Foods – not working in one!
Then again it’s not like Ahmed over at Jack’s actually washes his hands after he pees and then prepares you a tasty Cup-O-Noodles™ in the store’s seldom cleaned and much abused microwave. But at least I know that he’s there exploiting the neighborhood with his over priced transfat saturated garbage and makes no pretense about doing it. Hell for all I know he’s selling crack to the kids from the elementary school around the corner!
So I guess that my ire is somewhat misdirected and what I resent the most isn’t the slovenly Whole Food’s workers themselves but their complacent engrossment in this invasion of my neighborhood by the likes of these alternative lifestyle franchises with its “for the community/for your health” bullshit and all. Like how dare they come into this grimy repressed area and try and help us out by placing quality edible food within our grasp! And maybe the overly pierced youngsters behind the tofu counter just happen to remind me a little too much of myself at their age and ok, maybe I do need to take a look at that and stop blaming them for things that are beyond their ability to change. And so what that in my day tattoo scrawled junkies had scruples and boundaries as to what they’d allow themselves to be exploited with and that now these kids will just about do anything that bucks the old trends in order to survive.
Jesus! How could they be drilling for so long above me and not come through my ceiling yet? And I still haven’t had anything to eat though a double latte sounds just about right to get those digestive juices flowing. But don’t get me started on Starbucks vs. the little Russian guy’s espresso shop up on 3rd Street!
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Ah, that comfortable tinkling sound as the ice cubes flow to one side of the coffee mug and who’d a thought that the Scotch Whiskey of years past would be replaced with the Ther-a-flu of today? No longer “medicating one’s self” in the language of addiction, but actually medicating one’s self in a constant battle to stave off whatever germ/virus/dementia is threatening my immanent fragile state of being.
It’s noon on Thursday and I’m hoping that this week I can find my way to indeed stay out of the emergency room, thus breaking my own record for four consecutive Friday afternoon visits in a row. I really don’t know what’s going on here but as intricate as my health is nowadays you’d figure that I was dying of something. Yet every time I endure another régime of tests I come out with a clean bill of health and no real answers as to why in hell I can’t go for more than a week before being laid out with some debilitating aliment. It’s been more than a blessing to finally for once in my life have health coverage, but sort of strange that before without it I was never sick. Well, minor sniffles, a major drug habit and a few stitches here and there. But not: Pneumonia, Walking Pneumonia, Severe Allergic Reaction to Unknown Substances, Emergency Dental Gum Surgery, Acute Infection due to said Emergency Dental Gum Surgery, Shingles, Major and Minor Bouts of Depression, Third Degree Sunburn, Questionable Skin Detritus of the Extremities and too many colds, flues and assorted aches and pains to mention.
If I were to check off all of the ailments that I have endured in the last year you would think that it was from a detailed list of some adolescent teenager’s imagination who’s only wish was to miss another week of high school in order to hide from an agonizingly obscene dose of the zits! But given my age that is hardly the case and in reality I would gladly take on a ravenous acne attack rather than have to politely entertain what has been knocking on my door as of late.
My standard issue all American white metal and chrome with the mirrored front door medicine cabinet is filled full to capacity with prescription bottles of: Azithromycin, Amoxicillin, Ranitidine, Diphenhydramine Hydrochloride, Zovirax, Fluoxetine, Hydroxyzine and industrial strength Motrin. These of course are being forced to share the space with the usual assortment of normal personal hygiene items and an unusual amount of prescribed tubes of lotions and creams, like: Clobetasol Propionate, Betamethasone Dipropionate and least I forget the Hydrocortisone, Traumeel and Desonide ointments.
But what really amazes me is that I was able to exist for this long in my life without all these pills and medicated goo. Then again I wasn’t dying of an “as of yet diagnosed” Malicious Malignant Mental Melanoma, or is that Manitoba, a province rather than a state of mind? Who’s to say? And even if I was I didn’t have the medical coverage that I do now in order to be treated for all these maladies. So I probably wouldn’t have an overly stocked medicine cabinet or a continually rising co-payment to shell out at every convenient hospital visit either.
It’s just that Friday is looming closer onto the horizon and its kinda exciting trying to predict the next disorder—physical or mental. Hell, surf’s up! Maybe it will be something really exhilarating this time like an attack of Appendicitis! Whatever, as long as I get to lie around the emergency room watching Telemundo soap operas and writhing in pain.
Of course that this seemingly temporarily distracting existence could one day result in my inconvenient demise leaves me with nothing but to think about what it is going to be like—this morbid death of mine. Will it be like that moment when you’re getting photographed and of course you are busy looking at the floor or at a bit of crud hanging off of the person next to you? Your head a-tilt and what can be seen is a grimace across your face as the smile sorta fades and what is left can only be described as an expression of great pain. That one last “oh, what have I forgotten” look that makes me hate the exercise of being the victim of another photographic experience, yet still I try to accommodate those that attempt it whenever they chose to invade my life.
Will there really be that much time—that millisecond that it takes for the shutter to click open and then close? Is death really comparable to posing for your required “having fun on holiday” photo or is it much more of a mechanical equation more like simply flicking off the switch to the overhead light? Will I linger on one last wheezy whisper and then the entire seemingly wasted existence that was my life will play before my mind’s eye like a forbidden secret that only I get to witness this one last final time? Nice questions I know but what else is there to do but contemplate a grateful finish as you watch the flickering digital screen for your intake number to appear in a waiting room full of injured people vying for the triage nurse’s attention? Ah, emergency rooms—how I spent my summer vacation!
It’s kinda like watching this summer’s Olympics with the sound turned down. Physical records of endurance are being made but you have no idea as to the effort that is being put into it as you cannot hear the sounds of exertion emanating from those doing the record breaking deeds. Except when the guy in the next seat over who is holding what’s left of his face together stands up and cheers for the Cuban boxer who’s punching the hell outa some other steroid damaged kid from Poland! Where he gets that kinda strength I can’t fathom but hell if he’s in that good a shape to stand up and yell, well, then I should be seeing the doctor before him! Don’t you think, admittance nurse?
Anyway back to reality here, some might say that what I’m going through is strictly psychosomatic; meaning its all in my brain and I manifest it with physical symptoms that mimic real or perceived real diseases but that are really just me acting out sort of willing them to come true! Whoa! Now hold the frigg’in phone here a second! Seems like a lot of time and energy wasted there, huh? I could only prescribe to this chain of thought if it were indeed possible to accomplish this and not be aware of it at the same time. Which I am only too sure that it is as we are a sick bunch—that is we as in the human race. But no! I’d rather be banging away on my bass guitar and watching morally degenerate DVD’s than hacking up phlegm balls and getting my internal organs felt up by a practicing intern and even the draw of pharmaceutical highs isn’t the case here either as I decline such offers as more trouble than it’s worth if ya know what I mean and if you do than you do.
So aside from meeting exciting yet for the most part injured people for a few fleeting seconds or gaining the undying pity of all kinds of folks in the medical profession or getting to know the surly pharmacist on a first name basis, then there is really no reason as to why I would mentally will myself to go through all of the excruciating episodes that I have in the last year. Or for that matter taken all those liver debilitating drugs or in the very least smeared any of that antibacterial germ-destroying slime on the prescribed parts of my body! None, and I do mean none of this would I have done willingly if I did not feel that my very life depended on it and that very fact brings us around full circle to the original question: “What is going on with me or the universe that I live in that has been making me the sick person that I am at this moment in time?”
Ok, there I said it! No actually I’m shouting it out to the heavens above! But the answer is still obscure and unattainable and even if I was to suddenly get religion or irrationally join the US Army to kill for Saudi Arabian oil I know that I’d still be having these times of trouble during this year of technical difficulties and I’d still be stuck contemplating my hardships whether on medication or not. And of course none of this vague obscure reasoning really addresses the problem for what it truly is.
Maybe I have to look at it in more of a metaphysical light as in: Did I during the duration of any of these disorders find a place of peace or solitude, or at anytime did I gain any insightful wisdom while momentarily disabled by these wretched affliction’s relentless grip? Now while I am currently entertaining an above average case of “The Shingles”, which I’d have to say has been one of my least favorites, I think that I can safely say that while enduring everyone of these said ails that not one of them was an amiable state of being that I found comparable to how I feel when I am not under the weather and that no circumstances of sainthood, martyrdom, or inner peace have I, as of yet achieved. Due of course not to any lack of out of body experiences or mind altering antibiotics but mostly to a lack of consciousness as I prefer to sleep through it all when I don’t feel well.
I only bring this salvation/retribution-type matter up because oddly enough only yesterday on my way home I was talking to this intense Claretian Missionary guy on the 3rd Street bus about the good old days and I was telling him some of the frightful stuff that I used to do and he said, “That, my friend, is why you get things like shingles. You’re paying for your past sins.” Whoa again! So like what? I am forever in disfavor cosmically for having been an insufferable cretin? And if that is indeed the case then should I even continue to go on living or should I just cash my chips in now while I still have the chance? Or is there possibly someway to find out when I’m gonna be done paying for my past sins. Like a cosmic invoice of penance duly paid for past transgressions—sort of a barter system towards karma on the installment plan if you will? Hmmm. Pass me the Motrin I feel a soul cleansing Grand Mal seizure on the way!
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It’s just 10:53 pm and my neighbors are already jumping around like the drug crazed infidels that they truly are—though at the moment a little bit more than usual, and no doubt dancing that forbidden dance of the Voodoo while ritual-sacrificing some warm blooded beast to last night’s full moon. I can already smell the acidic scent of lighter fluid on the night’s air as they ignite tonight’s BBQ up on the roof and if I can indeed smell lighter fluid from down here four flights below then they’re up to their usual shenanigans and I’ll be lucky if the building is left standing after they get done tonight! And no, as tempting as it would be to dine al fresco on the roof of my splendid building overlooking the freeway and dark alleys off of 3rd Street, I have to decline. Not really wanting to associate with my neighbors any more than I already have to. Knowing how little time it will take until the Old English 800 takes effect only to be followed closely by the sacrament of smoking Crack and then how soon after that the short outbursts of small arms fire will begin is probably up to the position of the evening’s celestial stars, tonight’s orbit of the moon and its gravitational pull or any other number of the given ecliptic influences that effect this terrestrial globe that we all live on.
From the hand scrawled invite posted on the wall of the elevator car that I glanced at earlier in the day I’m gathering that I’m allowed to bring one guest to this impromptu soirée and “party until the food runs out”—whatever that means. Maybe after the food runs out they will cook and eat my invited friend? This is something I wouldn’t put past them! But anyway as an alternative to that reality, I am closing my window so that my entire apartment doesn’t smell like lighter fluid or worse like whatever will be BBQ’ed later on and shutting my blinds and then if it gets too out a hand—like flame-engulfed hallways or rapid fire assault rifles—well, then I’ll be slipping quietly out down the stairs and through the side door to the street. In situations like these it’s always good to have a backup plan or at least some clear path to the fire exits. Even though leaving the apartment itself during these episodes is a tad disconcerting at times.
Another thing: Did I mention that I’ve just discovered that the guy who’s out there on Market Street all day, everyday, marching up and down with the day-glo green “Jesus Christ Loves You!” sign while screaming incoherently about god, fornicators and heathens lives in my building? Hell, he actually lives on the same floor as me even! You know, I can’t begin to tell you just how proud that makes me feel to know that he is one of my immediate neighbors and ya know? I am only too sure that he too is up on the roof with the rest of the local denizens—can of 2-11 in hand and Jesus no doubt loving him as he drinks himself into another holy stupor of biblical proportions.
Unfortunately tonight it is not just the sound of merry making that is intruding on my senses but also the insane woman next door keeps pounding on the wall that separates our apartments—I can hardly be making that much noise while typing!? She’s about two hundred pounds of crack smoking menace and yes:
a) She could be dying
b) She could be out of crack
c) Your guess is as good as mine
d) All of the above
Maybe she will stop soon and I can go on about doing other things, like not wishing her grievous bodily harm or attempting to wash my clothes; not that her banging really impedes my laundry, it’s just a tad bit unsettling here whilst I write on my laptop. You know in all fairness there is an apartment on either side of hers, can’t she see that I’m not answering the wall right now, like maybe I’m busy and it may help to try the other side? But then there’s visions of her stuck somehow wedged into something; though this would be hard given the logistics, the size of the apartment, the size of her and besides the knocking is above my head anyway and I doubt she’s wedged into the ceiling, so no, that’s not it.
I’m hoping that tonight the laundry room is finally going to be open—though I think that someone has done something unspeakably wrong in there. It’s been locked for days and when I approach the front desk inquiring about it they claim ignorance. (However if you knew them, they really wouldn’t have to do that.) And all that they’ll divulge is that there is no record as to why it may be locked. Be that as it may, I tell them that it is indeed locked—as in the door won’t open, and could they come see why? This brings on shocked looks as if I am asking them to turn their heads whilst I jimmy the already jimmied soda machine in the lobby. “Couldn’t possible leave the desk, security reasons ya know!” is the response and then it’s my turn to look all shocked as they are hardly ever at the desk except on the first of the month looking for the rent and giving the evil eye to those they suspect haven’t paid yet. But this still isn’t helping with my laundry situation, and I’m dreading that I’ll have to venture forth to one of the other laundry rooms in the building.
I’m at least hoping that tonight there will be some sign as to what the hell’s happening in there. I mean it’s been flooded for months and that never got it locked up. There’s even been a somewhat clandestine love affair type rendezvous between certain unattractive tenants going on amongst the dryers on the weekends. One of which doesn’t really dry clothes—the dryer not the sordid clandestine affair, though it does take your money and spin slowly around in a very weak attempt at operating. But there’s been no yellow police crime scene tape, no “Closed due to repairs” sign, nothing and I am expecting that any day now to at least see blood seeping out from under the door or worse a gory bloody body drag trail off down the hallway into one of the other apartments. But no, nothing! Very strange, very strange, and I guess I’m gonna hafta go down to the creepy 2nd floor to wade through their laundry room where there’s usually some guy dressed only in his boxer shorts crouching half hidden in the shadows supposedly waiting for the dryers to be free.
Ok, I just want you to know that I am not making any of this shit up, but this morning the dude at the front desk—the weird little Ethiopian with the big head, not the Costa Rican rock-a-billy-guy with the tight rolled up cuffs on his levis—told me that they just tossed a “foreign” gentleman out of the building who was raising and then eating cats. Yep, you heard right, eating cats—“Tastes just like chicken!” and apparently he had them in cages in his room and apparently not all too hygienic about the whole deal because the entire 6th floor now smells like one giant cat piss filled litter box, which is also due to the workmen dragging out the urine soaked rug, bedding, etc. And it’s just like all those mass murderers you read about, because all his neighbors are going around describing him as a nice quiet guy who I’m sure if the building allowed children would have been known for being good to the kids. It was just the felines he had it in for. And I’m trying to get the story on how all this came to light, but the rest of the management is being unusually tight lipped about the incident and for good reason as they lifted the strictly enforced animal embargo with the allowance of the forty pound limit only recently. We are all allowed per our unpublished “tenant guidelines” pamphlet – forty pounds of animal in our perspective rooms – and obviously this guy took it to heart, so to speak, with forty pounds of cat to go, butchered and on the paw. And I’m a little worried because my forty pounds of Grub Worms has gone into a metamorphosis stage, all cocooned and such, and will they still be forty pounds when they hatch into god knows what? But I’m thinking of taking definite precautions and putting them in the elevator and punching the button for the lobby and letting the security staff downstairs deal with them.
Earlier tonight the tall gangly girl that I barely know who lives on the first floor of my building tried to forcefully get me to taste her bouillabaisse, and this after I had just got home—sort of chasing me down the hall with a giant spoon of steaming glop as I dropped my mail and fled in terror and it looked like New England Clam Chowder and besides I wasn’t even hungry and to top it all off she’s a student chef at the culinary institute and, well, I wasn’t in the mood to be a guinea pig—or any pig for that matter—and being forced to sample some weird white soup as soon as I set foot in the front door wasn’t really on my agenda and anyway I don’t remember bouillabaisse being white—a color for food that I sometimes find distasteful, so like I ran screaming down the hallway leaving today’s useless postal deliveries fluttering in my wake as I fumbled for my apartment key with my cell phone ringing away.
The phone call was of course from the front desk, which I had just passed not five seconds earlier, saying: “There’s a package here for you and you must claim it immediately… there is no room for it down here.” So with visions of a Volkswagen sized package arising in my gullible brain I descended to the lower level, all the while keeping an eye out for the marauding saucier wielding her steaming spoons of bouillabaisse, in order to retrieve said package un-accosted or at least unsoiled. Whereas at the front desk I signed the receipt book and the purveyor of security for my humble abode hands me a moderately small sized package. “There’s no room for this?” I queried. “Things have been stolen as of late, besides the nation’s on Orange Alert and you never can tell with packages!” I do not lie here, those were his actual words. I cannot begin to tell you how safe and well protected I feel here in my humble abode after that!
Now when these bizarre interactions become the norm and my day-to-day routine starts becoming remote and I tend to start viewing my life as a bit on the repetitious side— mainly because of inherited traits like: I work too much, I’m high on overtime, and when I am not working I sit in my apartment drinking endless lattes and stare at the freeway. In reality I live under the freeway, I live for the freeway. My apartment screams to be cleaned, my apartment is knee deep in empty used Starbuck’s latte cups, my dust bunnies could be Ikea furniture, my books pile up and want to go home to the library, my newspapers seem to mate and evolve into more useless sports sections in the corner, my fingers drum the table when they aren’t typing, I’ve quit smoking, but I’d mug an aging grandmother for her Benson and Hedges Ultra Light 100. I still haven’t finished writing the great American novel because I have to go to work to pay the bills, which enables me to keep writing, keep writing, keep going to work. It is a process, and smoking and eating and communicating with people just got in the way. But tonight to try and change this monotony, to break out of life’s repetitious cycle of the same thing over and over again, I took a little time out and I was able to wolf down some leftover Thai takeout and watch a pleasant little documentary on solitary confinement in the Indiana penal system, where there seem to be an over abundance of very angry tattooed white guys. Yeah I know, go figure, which just about proves that when I am in that I-gotta-do-something-different mood I’ll try just about anything and that maybe repetition isn’t such a bad thing after all, especially if it saves me from witnessing the Indiana penal system or for that matter anything else that cable TV has to offer.
Last night crazy Sherry dropped by to borrow a twenty spot. She has lost an amazing amount of weight—just on her ass alone, and faced with another neighbor—another myself really, I am powerless. So I lent her the cash, no questions asked. But just what does someone really need 20 smack-a-roons at 11 pm at night for anyway? Hmmm? Nutritious snacks from the liquor store? Delivered Chinese food? A shot of dope maybe?! I know I’ll regret lending it to her when I see her glide by ghost-like on 3rd Street oblivious and in a daze—a shell of her former self and its not the fact that she isn’t ever gonna pay back the money, or that she somehow got over on me It’s just knowing that I willingly contributed to her slow demise that really hurts, but for some reason I couldn’t find the heart to say no.
So, you ask, what is it that’s really going on down there in that South of Market building of yours? Well, I’d hafta say, urban life, I guess. It is hardly what one would call a “Clean and Sober” environment; yet the entire building isn’t a crack-house, though one of the local crack dealers does live a few doors down the hall, which probably accounts for the decrepit midget women with the cane that I see creeping down my hallway at all hours of the night, and the forty ounce beer bottles piled up against the garbage chute as they compete for space next to the half gallon jugs that once held vodka or the uppity and no longer mobile merlot bottles that actually used to have corks all gather dust until the maintenance man tried of seeing them tosses them down the chute together with the rest of the trash in his special way of recycling.
All day and night a rotating parade of stinky speed freaks with extra dark sunglasses ride the elevator to the fifth floor sweating profusely, while certain hallways reek-o-the-skunk-weed and more than a few people that I used to know don’t look so good anymore, or more to the point, don’t look me in the eye anymore. On any given day one of the more industrious crack dealers is always out front waiting for cars to pull up to the curb and this one older black woman, when she’s not exposing herself on the elevator or incessantly pounding on the dealer’s door, can be found outside the building wandering in the adjacent trash strewn parking lots staring at the ground. Hell, the whole world’s getting high—just look around you! But none the less everyday more seemingly happy people enter to become residents as more apartments vacate and people suddenly disappear and the ambulance arrives one more time for apartment 417 and the traffic continues overhead on the bridge and right now in the apartment downstairs there’s a lot of yelling going on regarding bitches and ho’s, the merits of certain women of certain races and the effectiveness of the AN-64 Apache Assault Helicopter on jungle warfare during the Tet offensive of the Viet Nam war.
You know maybe one a these days I can get out of here, like when I can afford it, like when Hades has a morning frost or another apartment opens up in another building, one where they’ll let me in with my bad credit and even worse income. But that probably narrows it down to some skid row hotel with one of those pitiful ceiling fans or better yet a rundown brick tenement with leaking air conditioning and a hefty torn yellowed shade for the window and a liquor store on the ground floor that caters to hookers and dope addicts and, well, am I being a little too choosey? No, I forgot: that’s where I do live!
Ok, the next-door neighbor? The one who communicates by bashing a shorthand Morse code on the wall that separates our apartments? Well, she’s about to make it into my apartment the hard way, like making a new door kinda way. I wonder if that last hit-o-crack really did the trick and she’s beating her approval while stomping her feet because there seems to be a reverberating echo, sort a like an under tone kinda tempo that’s going along with the intense primal banging right in front of me behind my computer and just a bit above my head. But hey! Maybe that’s just the next neighbor down and my floor’s doing the bang-the-wall wave at midnight and they forgot to tell me when I came home.
Outside my window is the waning full moon and for some reason it’s quiet. Well, not all that quiet, there’s still the throbbing primal rhythm coming from the party on the roof as the freeway’s relentless audio barrage still expresses itself with a mighty roar of night traffic that almost makes me think that I’ve got to quit huffing gasoline first thing in the morning, like it kinda makes writing at night a whole new ball game and it’s a bit hard to type too! Now you’ll have to excuse me I’ve got to turn my stereo back up before I get hypnotized into a zombie by the drums of the Calypso beat.
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